Here is a screenshot of my video application to speak at a conference in Nice, France in 2018. It is a wonderful conference being put on by The Expansion Project (www.expansionproject.ca) which brings together people looking to elevate their life and passion for living. The extra beautiful part of their work is that there is always a charitable component, giving time and money to charities from their proceeds.
Some people may wonder why it was so important to me to apply. It came down to not wanting to have regrets of not at least trying.
When I was about nine, I had just moved continents and was back at a school being the new girl again. We had moved lots during my childhood and of course that affected my confidence in a big way.
Shortly after I arrived, there was an audition for a school play. I was desperate to audition but I also felt so intimidated by everyone in that school. We were the least wealthy in an elite private school, I was in what can best be described as an “awkward” hair phase, and I didn’t have many friends. Everyone else who was auditioning was prettier and smarter (or so I thought) and I let these things talk me out of trying.
No one can say whether I was a better actress than others, but I never let myself try. The regret has stayed with me all these years. I may not have gotten a part, and I would have been appropriately sad for a fleeting time, but what I truly regret is the not trying.
It’s always easy to see that there are people with more experience in speaking, people who have a better website or more money or poise, better hair or cuter glasses. But I also know that I have unique things to share and I have promised myself since the age of nine, that I will always try.
So try I did. I hope I am selected. But even if I am not, I won’t have any regrets, and that feels like the biggest success of all.